Being older and still healthy, really gives me a chance to have another life in this life. I want to be excited about new goals and passions. It’s not that I wasn’t excited before. But, I’ve grown. It’s time to reevaluate. When I was younger, I hadn’t learned about how to survive. I hadn’t discovered those dysfunctional beliefs that were the most valuable training ground for my growth. Like all of us, I operated out of my old beliefs, because I was trying to protect and justify myself in the world. I was trying to find a way to make my life work for me and others.
Up until recently, all people pretty much lived as we do. They were educated through life circumstances in how to behave socially and financially . They grew up in whatever environment, family and country they were born into. They, like us, performed their roles and jobs. They became mothers, fathers, secretaries, lawyers, and medical professionals. But, they didn’t, live to be old enough to expect something different, something new. They didn’t have the chance to discover a call to change. People who lived to age 50 were considered old. Now, many people have the time, health and energy, to live 10-25 years longer.
As a “boomer”, I feel an urgent need for a deeper meaning. You see, my sense of myself being here, in this body, cries out from time to time, “Pay attention! This is all the time you have left!” I’m driven by what feels like persistent energy, to explore experiences that are “meaningful for me”. That place in me, is driven by the same energy that drove the my friend, Alice who I wrote about in an earlier post. But, the demanding survival energy that pushed Alice to act is altered in midlife into another form. Stay tuned for my next post to find out what this looks like.